The decision to turn off my alarm clock this morning lead to my not getting out of bed until 2:20pm. It wasn't even like I was awake and decided not to get up. My alarm went off at 8:00am and I thought "I don't need to be up yet..." so off it went and back to sleep went I. In the middle of some sort of dream that I'm desperately trying to recall, I remember startling myself awake and looking at the clock. 2:30pm on the clock beside my bed, which is ten minutes fast. My first thought: I must have hit something when I turned my alarm off. No way was it 2:30. Too bad reality and my thoughts don't always match up.
I actually had things I wanted to do today. But alas, I have decided not to do most of them. That decision was prompted mostly by the fact that I'm still working on waking up. Also, I have a graduate school orientation meeting tonight at Aurora University and as soon as I finish this it will be time to get ready for that. I have to decide if I'm going to straighten my hair.
So, you want to talk about decisions? Let's spend a minute or two thinking about the impending decisions surrounding graduate school. I've been accepted to both the schools I applied to, Arizona State University and Aurora University. By this point I suppose I've decided to go to one or the other, only I'm beginning to question why I thought making this decision was such a wise idea. The schools are so different - and I thought I wanted it that way. I guess I hoped I would not get into one. I guess I hoped that it would be clearer where God wanted me to go. The only thing I have going for me still is that I don't know about the scholarship at Arizona. I'm still considering that as a deciding factor in some senses. Though I like to think I know what I am supposed to do, it seems that everyone in my life is telling me to do the opposite of that. So basically I haven't a freaking clue. This decision might be one of the most difficult ones I've ever had to make. I feel like it goes in a huge circle.
Decisions. I really hate making them. Should I straighten my hair for the meeting tonight?
Back in college, in 2004 when blogging was hardly even a thing yet, I was here. Blogging before blogging meant anything to anyone. You can look in the archives for my past writings, but it was much more like a journal in the past. When we started fundraising, I messed around with the idea of launching something new for this new phase of our journey but actually hated that idea. I am a sum of all of my life and so much of it is here already. So I'm keeping it here. At least for now.
My main focus these days is blogging about our newest journey into the bizarre and wonderful world of gestational surrogacy. Posts dated 2013 and forward will trend heavily toward that journey. I don't promise everything I write will be about though. There might be other things that sneak in occasionally.
Please come along our journey with us. As the saying goes, "The more, the merrier!"
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