For the past six weeks I have been on-the-go, non-stop, full-speed-ahead. I have learned to be prepared for anything, to go with the flow, to be patient in traffic, endure lonely country roads, to change plans on moments notice, and to accept change more willingly. In general, I've learned to expect the unexpected. This is not a pace I can honestly say I enjoy, but it is one I understand that, at this time, is necessary. Six weeks. It's beginning to seem like a long time. But even though it's been longer than "ideal," I know that it is temporary. And in knowing that, there is an ounce of comfort.
This week has been extraordinarily challenging many different ways. Ways I found myself pondering at 2:30 this morning when a lightning show woke me from a sweet dream. Though I would have much rather remained undisturbed in my dreamworld I instead grappled with reality for the next two hours.
And reality is this: while I may not have expected the experiences I had this week I have a God who did. And, whatsmore, He understands and has purposed each of those experiences. Every last one. Even the ones I haven't come to realize yet. He knows all of it and He is in control - of all of it.
Whereas I must learn to expect the unexpected God - well - He is God. He has that omniscient thing going for Him. I'm glad I'm learning to be content in any circumstance. Moreover, I am immeasurably relieved that God - the powerful almighty God of the universe who is also my loving Father - does something as amazing as defy grammatical conventions. Suddenly, expecting the unexpected is no longer a future perfect concern.
Back in college, in 2004 when blogging was hardly even a thing yet, I was here. Blogging before blogging meant anything to anyone. You can look in the archives for my past writings, but it was much more like a journal in the past. When we started fundraising, I messed around with the idea of launching something new for this new phase of our journey but actually hated that idea. I am a sum of all of my life and so much of it is here already. So I'm keeping it here. At least for now.
My main focus these days is blogging about our newest journey into the bizarre and wonderful world of gestational surrogacy. Posts dated 2013 and forward will trend heavily toward that journey. I don't promise everything I write will be about though. There might be other things that sneak in occasionally.
Please come along our journey with us. As the saying goes, "The more, the merrier!"
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