Costa Rica was amazing - I'm still trying to gather my thoughts and emotions around putting together the proper words to describe the events and experience I had there. Adjusting to coming back home has been much more difficult than I imagined it would be. We were only gone for nine days. So I'm not sure why the adjustment has been so difficult. The term I guess is "reverse culture shock" and while I didn't really expect it after only nine days, it hit me incredibly hard. In ways I did not even expect.
I've felt incomplete this week. And I've spent a great deal of time trying to figure out where the rest of me went. Honestly most days it has felt as though part of me did not get on the plane when I came home. And so as I was unpacking and reorganizing life this week, I've spent time trying to find that part that seemingly got left behind. Today I finally resolved that whatever part it is remains in Central America was left there, with my Ticos, right where it was meant to be left. Even though I am home, where God wants me to be, my heart, in many ways is still in Costa Rica. I trusted God and served a purpose there. And now part of me will be forever connected with Heredia, Costa Rica. With the people, ministry, places, and experiences there I will have a life long connection.
That is enough to send this grateful heart into a state of shock. It may take some time to fully recover from what they call "reverse culture shock." Call it what you will. I call it incredible.
Back in college, in 2004 when blogging was hardly even a thing yet, I was here. Blogging before blogging meant anything to anyone. You can look in the archives for my past writings, but it was much more like a journal in the past. When we started fundraising, I messed around with the idea of launching something new for this new phase of our journey but actually hated that idea. I am a sum of all of my life and so much of it is here already. So I'm keeping it here. At least for now.
My main focus these days is blogging about our newest journey into the bizarre and wonderful world of gestational surrogacy. Posts dated 2013 and forward will trend heavily toward that journey. I don't promise everything I write will be about though. There might be other things that sneak in occasionally.
Please come along our journey with us. As the saying goes, "The more, the merrier!"
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