There is a light at the end of the tunnel! A little glimmer at least. The words are returning to me - after what feels like an eternity of nothingness. I think it's only been about a week or so. But trust me, its felt longer!
Processing is painful and it sometimes strips me of my ability to communicate. Maybe not the ability so much as the desire. I blamed it on lack of cell phone minutes and being busy. Those were simply coincidences. Well timed ones. For yesterday I began to talk again and I realized that I'd been holding onto something. Something sweet. Something secluded in my memory and future. Something that cannot be in the present. I will not reveal much more about this something but I will say that it has been brought to mind in a new way in the past few weeks. Though it has been with me for about five years now.
And then suddenly these coincidences don't feel so coincidental. It is because they aren't? Or could it be because they aren't meant to be? Often I read too much into things. I'm really skilled at that. But it feels like an invasion. And I don't want it. Or do I?
Back in college, in 2004 when blogging was hardly even a thing yet, I was here. Blogging before blogging meant anything to anyone. You can look in the archives for my past writings, but it was much more like a journal in the past. When we started fundraising, I messed around with the idea of launching something new for this new phase of our journey but actually hated that idea. I am a sum of all of my life and so much of it is here already. So I'm keeping it here. At least for now.
My main focus these days is blogging about our newest journey into the bizarre and wonderful world of gestational surrogacy. Posts dated 2013 and forward will trend heavily toward that journey. I don't promise everything I write will be about though. There might be other things that sneak in occasionally.
Please come along our journey with us. As the saying goes, "The more, the merrier!"
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