I think I might be too prepared. Tonight's rehearsal and blocking session wasn't all I thought it would be. Though it was a good time my nerves about tomorrow are not calmed in any way by what transpired tonight. (I had some fun with a karaoke machine and Cory and Vicki . . . good times and fun made for a night I will always remember - secret is: I'd never done karaoke before. Shhh don't tell!) But I don't feel well prepared for tomorrow's drama meeting. Well, I do. But I don't think the scene is ready to present. Maybe I'm putting too much pressure on the whole thing. Maybe I care too much. Maybe I shouldn't. Maybe I should. Maybe, maybe, maybe. . .
I am putting myself completely into this scene. I want it to be great. I want to wow people. I learned that for his scene, to be performed at next month's meeting, Cory actually did research about what type of cigarettes that they would have smoked in the 1930's is will have one in his hand. And I was reminded why working with others is not always my preferred method of preparation for something I've put so much of myself into. Someday I'm going to have to learn the art of that balance.
I learned tonight that there are different levels of intensity with which one can approach a such a portion of a scene. Those various levels of intensity are what tend to produce, I think, the varying degree of acting abilitiesss that can then be observed among individuals who claim the title of actor. Of course I am not confusing the issue of talent and practice. For in each area I propose one can be separately intense.
Back in college, in 2004 when blogging was hardly even a thing yet, I was here. Blogging before blogging meant anything to anyone. You can look in the archives for my past writings, but it was much more like a journal in the past. When we started fundraising, I messed around with the idea of launching something new for this new phase of our journey but actually hated that idea. I am a sum of all of my life and so much of it is here already. So I'm keeping it here. At least for now.
My main focus these days is blogging about our newest journey into the bizarre and wonderful world of gestational surrogacy. Posts dated 2013 and forward will trend heavily toward that journey. I don't promise everything I write will be about though. There might be other things that sneak in occasionally.
Please come along our journey with us. As the saying goes, "The more, the merrier!"
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