In the wee hours of Friday morning I woke with a fever. 101.3. Chills. Violent shaking. The whole nine. Lately it seems that just as I overcome one physical obstacle, I find myself in the middle of the next one. I know better than to blame it all on my crappy immune system - however I have spent a few days wishing for a better one. I also know better than to blame it on the fact that there are various strands of this infection/virus I seem to have contracted going around. I mean, clearly, I got sick. Yes. True. That cannot be explained away.
But I'm being reminded that God is begging me to depend on Him. And spend time alone. Seeking Him. It's not that I forget to do that when I'm not sick somehow, it's just that for some reason, God seems to speak most clearly when I am at my worst physically. I don't quite understand how or why He's chosen to use that method as it makes about zero sense to me. But I've stopped resisting and left space for it and I've felt pretty awful for last three weeks. (You will recall the sprained leg...) And what's incredible is that I've never been more content.
Friday I got pretty dehydrated because I wouldn't eat or drink. So my sister, who has 2 quarters left until she is a certified BSN ordered Pedialyte. Yes, the stuff small children drink when they get sick. The grape flavored liquid has essentially been my sustenance for the last few days. That and prayer. Yesterday I added toast and soup. So while it may hold true that man should not live on bread alone, I challenge that bread, broth, prayer and pedialyte make a decent diet.
Back in college, in 2004 when blogging was hardly even a thing yet, I was here. Blogging before blogging meant anything to anyone. You can look in the archives for my past writings, but it was much more like a journal in the past. When we started fundraising, I messed around with the idea of launching something new for this new phase of our journey but actually hated that idea. I am a sum of all of my life and so much of it is here already. So I'm keeping it here. At least for now.
My main focus these days is blogging about our newest journey into the bizarre and wonderful world of gestational surrogacy. Posts dated 2013 and forward will trend heavily toward that journey. I don't promise everything I write will be about though. There might be other things that sneak in occasionally.
Please come along our journey with us. As the saying goes, "The more, the merrier!"
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Hope you feel better soon and I'll send some prayers your way too!
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