I brought a ring on my trip to Costa Rica last summer. It is a white and made of stone. I'm not sure what sort of stone, but came from a bin containing thousands of rings nearly like it - different colors and sizes. This one fit perfectly. I knew it was mine instantly.
I wasn't sure why. I only ever wear one ring so buying a ring seemed strange. My Costa Rica ring did not take its home on my finger for a while after the trip. I never wear more than the one ring. Eventually I put it on and since that day it has held a significance of which I think only I will every fully be aware. This ring came to serve as a reminder. A reminder of Costa Rica. The place. The view. The atmosphere. The lessons I learned there, the people I interacted with, and the knowledge I gained on that trip.
Rings are best known in their symbolic nature. Given and received as a sign of commitment in many cultures. My Costa Rica ring is no different. It should be, as most rings are, known for it's symbolic nature. I received this ring, albeit without complete knowledge of the fact, as a symbol of a commitment. The depth of that nature is too personal for blogger, however, more than mere reminders of a great trip, I will say that this ring became for me a symbol of trust and commitment. Each time I put it on my finger I was begged to recall the trust I'd need to stick to the commitments I made. I held it all there on my finger, in my hand, close to my heart.
Today when I was cleaning my ring fell from my bathroom counter and broke into three pieces. Part of me shattered with it as tears formed. I let myself cry. Now as I sit and look at the three pieces - no longer connected in a ring - I am forced to consider in light of the commitments this ring stands for, what its shattering might symbolize.
Back in college, in 2004 when blogging was hardly even a thing yet, I was here. Blogging before blogging meant anything to anyone. You can look in the archives for my past writings, but it was much more like a journal in the past. When we started fundraising, I messed around with the idea of launching something new for this new phase of our journey but actually hated that idea. I am a sum of all of my life and so much of it is here already. So I'm keeping it here. At least for now.
My main focus these days is blogging about our newest journey into the bizarre and wonderful world of gestational surrogacy. Posts dated 2013 and forward will trend heavily toward that journey. I don't promise everything I write will be about though. There might be other things that sneak in occasionally.
Please come along our journey with us. As the saying goes, "The more, the merrier!"
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