...I pretty much didn't write at all.
...I really didn't read either.
...I got a migraine that lasted for 6 entire days.
...I decided to take job number 8.
...I prayed a lot.
...I slept a lot.
...I got prayed for - a lot. By some people who care - a lot.
...I had some good conversations.
...I made some new friends
...I reconnected with some old ones (you know who you are...).
...I gained some clarity.
...I made some decisions about next steps to take. Bold, courageous next steps.
I know you all want to know where these decisions are going to take me. And truth is, so do I. But the other thing that happened when I stopped blogging is that I realized it's not my job to define the steps. Just to take them. One at a time.
I'm blogging again. And today I picked up a book I should have finished weeks ago. A good one thus far. It connects to blogging for me. In a way. Weird in a sense; because of what this medium has become there are many wouldn't view it as a good connection. Among, I fear, them the author of this book and likely the person who recommended it to me. They, I think, would both be slightly appalled at my choice. I am not sure if I can even number myself among those who consider blogger an appropriate space for what I'm creating. (Which was part of the motivation for the break in the first place.) But I make the choice anyway. Because of this: take a look at the first "when I stopped blogging..." from this post again. It's most noteworthy. And most connected. To me. This blog has been a habit for almost two years. Blogging - as weird and untrue to the nature of this media as it might seem - has for me become a creative habit.
Back in college, in 2004 when blogging was hardly even a thing yet, I was here. Blogging before blogging meant anything to anyone. You can look in the archives for my past writings, but it was much more like a journal in the past. When we started fundraising, I messed around with the idea of launching something new for this new phase of our journey but actually hated that idea. I am a sum of all of my life and so much of it is here already. So I'm keeping it here. At least for now.
My main focus these days is blogging about our newest journey into the bizarre and wonderful world of gestational surrogacy. Posts dated 2013 and forward will trend heavily toward that journey. I don't promise everything I write will be about though. There might be other things that sneak in occasionally.
Please come along our journey with us. As the saying goes, "The more, the merrier!"
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