It will be Tuesday in ten minutes. Tuesday is my favorite day of the week.
This week Tuesday will be different. Not in routine or spirit, which are by now mostly set in tones that brightly tweak my days. Not in number of hours; there will still be twenty-four, though daylight savings time has it feeling like less. Not in the friendships celebrated or the conversations that accomplish such celebrations. Not in cups of coffee (I average two). Not in the work I do. Or don't.
Tuesday will be different this week for I will pondering something all day. And though it is my favorite day of the week, this week there will be answers I long for that Tuesday cannot bring. And this one of my pondering, which has begun before Tuesday's dawn, is only just one of them. It may not come next week Tuesday. Or weeks after that. And even if it ever does, it may be disguised or appear differently than I'd like it to this week. However, I know that when the answer does arrive, everything will change.
That knowing is an unsettling of sorts. It breathes into my being a restlessness. Somewhere in that restlessness I find enough sense to resist the temptation that is the the need for the answer. There I find rest in the fact that when the answer comes, be it Wednesday or next week Sunday, Tuesday will always be my favorite day of the week.
Back in college, in 2004 when blogging was hardly even a thing yet, I was here. Blogging before blogging meant anything to anyone. You can look in the archives for my past writings, but it was much more like a journal in the past. When we started fundraising, I messed around with the idea of launching something new for this new phase of our journey but actually hated that idea. I am a sum of all of my life and so much of it is here already. So I'm keeping it here. At least for now.
My main focus these days is blogging about our newest journey into the bizarre and wonderful world of gestational surrogacy. Posts dated 2013 and forward will trend heavily toward that journey. I don't promise everything I write will be about though. There might be other things that sneak in occasionally.
Please come along our journey with us. As the saying goes, "The more, the merrier!"
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