The other day when while driving it hit me. Like a brick in the face. I'm in love. I'd had clues. My life has been a bit unorganized lately. Frankly I'm a mess. Piles of things I cannot get straightened out. Boxes yet to be unpacked from my move...In July. And then there is the issue of the fact that I'm not writing. Not even in my journal and certainly not on here. My pen, keyboard, and thought-process are all at a standstill. What causes this nonsense?
It could be blamed on the new job. Sure, I've been busy with work. That sounds reasonable. Just being exhausted when I come home...right? Or better! Transitions with the move and getting a new roommate. Yes - exactly!
But when I realized that I find myself thinking on him often, wondering when we'll talk next, how his day is going, and even if or when I'll get to see him that all was lost. Lost to love.
So, I say
I'm in love
So I said it
aLoud
to him whom I love
to you who may never care.
to anyone with an ear.
I say, "So, I'm in love!"
and somehow
though I love
aLone
saying so
to you and
to anyone and
to him whom I love
brings peace
to the loving
in me
aLive
Back in college, in 2004 when blogging was hardly even a thing yet, I was here. Blogging before blogging meant anything to anyone. You can look in the archives for my past writings, but it was much more like a journal in the past. When we started fundraising, I messed around with the idea of launching something new for this new phase of our journey but actually hated that idea. I am a sum of all of my life and so much of it is here already. So I'm keeping it here. At least for now.
My main focus these days is blogging about our newest journey into the bizarre and wonderful world of gestational surrogacy. Posts dated 2013 and forward will trend heavily toward that journey. I don't promise everything I write will be about though. There might be other things that sneak in occasionally.
Please come along our journey with us. As the saying goes, "The more, the merrier!"
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