There are many factors that play into today being the best day in a long time. My best friend would label the mood I've been in a "funk"...she has them often, when I have them they just last long. But today it feels like the "funk" has lifted a little. I remembered today that it's important to have fun experiences, to connect with people you love, and to build new relationships - even if they only last for a moment. I don't know if my "funk" is over or not. But today it feels good to be me.
Today I feel loved and beautiful. But here's an important note: I don't think it's all about external circumstances. Though there have been a few of those that have influenced how I felt today, recently I have just been in a time of surrendering so much to God. I think He's bringing me through some of the surrender - letting me see that I need to fully leave it for Him and trust that He's going to take me away, to lead me, through all of the circumstances of life - regardless of what they are. And in that I've found He's teaching me that "beautiful" is so much more than skin deep. That I am truly beautiful. Always in His perfect sight. His daughter and love. And seeing parts of who I am in Christ helps me know the turths in the circumstances I expereinced today.
For a while now I knew today was going to be a long day. Circumstances: Work and then an outing with the full-time core of the team. Whirly Ball and dinner at Cheeseburger Paradise. Not to mention a bagel break at work this morning and lunch break complete with a continuation of our famous Skip-Bo tournament. (My job is pretty cool some days...these days are those days...). I actually managed some work in there someplace. Everyone else busted their butts to get set-ups done so the building was in order. I have a great team and even though I'm in a season where I'm discerning a lot at work and wishing things were different than they are, I'm happy to be a part of a team of great people who love God and love to play.
As a side note, I told "my new best friend" Amanda I would salute her on my blog tonight. I'll never see her again likely, unless it's in a hospital somewhere. She was our waitress at CP tonight and randomly told me I was beautiful and hugged me, so I decided that we should be "best friends." Every time she came to the table she would ask me how I was and include the fact that we were now "best friends" in her comment. It was fun. She was wonderful and served our group well. I went to thank her and say goodbye and learned that she is headed to Ohio to medical school in a week. Thanks Amanda and good luck!
For however wonderful it was to watch my team play today and vicariously enjoy their fun (because clearly Whirly Ball is out of the question for "The Gimp" as I have affectionately come to be known by my co-workers) there is no way that I could have expected or predicted the way my day began. In its beginning is where the best part of my day is held and it has little to do with playing with my team.
See, I have a new friend. And today the whole of my life heard of him unexpectedly because he surprised me and I couldn't keep my mouth shut of it. I've been beaming. My housemates will confirm - the said they had to get their sunglasses. Lorne warned me not to make any promises. (Thanks Lorne, always good to be grounded.) Anyway I suppose I've had this friend a little while now. I won't be detailing except to say I'm surprised by him every day. I've learned my lesson about divulging of the information too soon [...you all remember what happened the last time I said too much too quick (and if you don't just think AZ)...] So you'll get more as I'm ready. But as for the gentleman who surprised me today and probably will tomorrow, I will say my day started with words from my new friend that pretty much changed my perspective on how I might be viewing our new friendship. And I've been reeling all day trying to assimilate this information into my head - logically of course. It's super new and challenging in some incredible ways. But so far it's been a thrilling ride and I on it to see where God leads.
This has been the best day in a long time. I hope I can respond well to what God blessed me with today.
Back in college, in 2004 when blogging was hardly even a thing yet, I was here. Blogging before blogging meant anything to anyone. You can look in the archives for my past writings, but it was much more like a journal in the past. When we started fundraising, I messed around with the idea of launching something new for this new phase of our journey but actually hated that idea. I am a sum of all of my life and so much of it is here already. So I'm keeping it here. At least for now.
My main focus these days is blogging about our newest journey into the bizarre and wonderful world of gestational surrogacy. Posts dated 2013 and forward will trend heavily toward that journey. I don't promise everything I write will be about though. There might be other things that sneak in occasionally.
Please come along our journey with us. As the saying goes, "The more, the merrier!"
No comments:
Post a Comment