Just a Dream

Today I know it's not what

I thought it might have been

So tonight I might sleep better,

at least more soundly than when

her face was all I saw;

eyes so blue and hair gently gleaming

Her words stung,

as if they came from me 

 

Now I know -  in this now -  

however long its meant to be -

I will stop from seeming

so flawed and out of place

For a moment, a slice of time,

(can I hang on forever?)

I understood the wonder of

an everlasting grace.

 
 
My spinal tap was July 7th.  This whole ordeal (the flare, being sick, having to deal with doctors and illness so constantly) has been so challenging but this past week, facing the unknown and possibility of MS has been so hard.  I've been "on edge."   Thanks to Trisha's help in sorting out all of the words I've lost in this mess, I can confidently say that "on edge" directly translates to "on my knees before the Lord" sorting through my response to the results.  I responded in fear first - I always do.  I really need to work on that.  He's God, I'm not.  Fear really just doesn't belong.  Someday maybe I'll learn.
 
I got my results today.  I'm thankful that everything looks good.  I will have to be monitored always, but that's really anything new.   But as of today, and hopefully for always, there is no MS to be found.  Yay God!