It has been true of me for a very long time that I like to clean. However, there is one particular thing that tends to motivate my "cleaning binges." "What's that," one may ask? It's being upset or angry or just so completely confused that I can't make sense of a thing. I have psychoanalized my cleaning problem and come up with this clever self-diagnosis. The phenomenon is characterized as follows: When I feel as though I am losing control I clean and organize and it becomes nearly compulsive. I have termed this "illness" Control-cleaning. I suppose it is psychologically similar to the illnesses of anorexia and bulimia in that I strive to control something. When I feel completely out of control, I change my environment. I believe there are also similarities demonstrated that mirror those of OCD. I really y do become obsessed with cleanliness. Dust and the possibility of germs existing anywhere in my life actually freak me out. I think this is always true, however it seems to be more obvious or severely so when I am upset about something.
So, I channel my emotion into the desire, or even need/compulsion, to clean. On Saturday at work, the Kasier's were treated to a completely cleaned and organized refigderator. Yesterday, my new/old roommates were surprised with a clean apartment upon their return from work. And I did all my laundry. And re-arranged the room I am claiming as my own here at the Zeleke residence. I am glad that I can chalk all this up to the beauty of spring cleaning. Then people won't know I'm actually crazy :-P
Back in college, in 2004 when blogging was hardly even a thing yet, I was here. Blogging before blogging meant anything to anyone. You can look in the archives for my past writings, but it was much more like a journal in the past. When we started fundraising, I messed around with the idea of launching something new for this new phase of our journey but actually hated that idea. I am a sum of all of my life and so much of it is here already. So I'm keeping it here. At least for now.
My main focus these days is blogging about our newest journey into the bizarre and wonderful world of gestational surrogacy. Posts dated 2013 and forward will trend heavily toward that journey. I don't promise everything I write will be about though. There might be other things that sneak in occasionally.
Please come along our journey with us. As the saying goes, "The more, the merrier!"
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Oh, we know already!
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