This week got off to a rather rough start. This month, for a matter of fact, has had a bumpy beginning. But as the song I'm listening to at the moment boasts, "...this life is better off a mystery...keep 'em coming, these blessings in disguise." And I would have to agree with that wisdom, brought to us by Caedemon's Call this morning. Whole heartedly I agree! And wait to see what is coming next - disguised as it may be.
It's Holy Week. And I might not be externally happy. But it was pointed out to me this week by someone with a good deal of wisdom that I need to be moved (even literally I guess) often because I'm contented relatively easily. For whatever reason, I cannot remain in a content place. He has a desire for me and I need to be in a constant motion toward that desire. He moves me...in a way with which, over the years, He's established amazing consistency disguised as chaos. One thing my life has taught me is that God is consistent even if I cannot be. The lives of those around me that appear more stable sometimes make me jealous. I want for their stability; I would trade it in a second for the craziness of what is my reality. But then I remember something important: I am not them. They have the lives God gave them, and I the one He fashioned just for me. God is personal. Intimate. And he knows me. Deeply. If I had more stability, chances are (and chance has been proved by past experiences), I might forget to respond to Him. God knows me and He knows just how and when I need to be moved. And he would not welcome the laziness that I would develop if I were left to become content. Such would not be in line with His desire for me.
I will welcome what He's doing this week. Even though I don't quite get it yet. This week, I will choose not to reflect on the things that seem to be falling down around me faster than I can pick them up (though that's going to take a lot of effort, time, prayer, and I'll need help.) It's been a rough start, but I'm hoping and praying that the bumps smooth out and things clear up along the road to the cross.
Back in college, in 2004 when blogging was hardly even a thing yet, I was here. Blogging before blogging meant anything to anyone. You can look in the archives for my past writings, but it was much more like a journal in the past. When we started fundraising, I messed around with the idea of launching something new for this new phase of our journey but actually hated that idea. I am a sum of all of my life and so much of it is here already. So I'm keeping it here. At least for now.
My main focus these days is blogging about our newest journey into the bizarre and wonderful world of gestational surrogacy. Posts dated 2013 and forward will trend heavily toward that journey. I don't promise everything I write will be about though. There might be other things that sneak in occasionally.
Please come along our journey with us. As the saying goes, "The more, the merrier!"
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