This morning I woke up late and arrived late to work. I hate being late. It's one of my greatest pet peeves. As I proceeded through my day it was ordinary, to be sure. My main task really as it has been for weeks now was to progress through the day, another day, without further damage to my healing body. Yesterday, a little over two months after round tables collapsed into my coworkers therein landing my back center-stage with the corner of one of their square companions into my back, my doctor finally decided that he thinks there is a disc in my back putting pressure on a nerve.
And then I heard some words I was too familiar with: chronic pain. Moments before those words came from the doctor I'd been talking to my physical therapist (who I'll be great friends with by the end of this month) and telling her how blessed I've felt to have the experiences with pain that I've had. "I am actually looking at this pain like a sort of relief in a way" I said to her, "I know that it will someday go away."
Indeed there will be weeks of PT and maybe things beyond that. The word epidural was also familiar; though if that step is required the location will be a little more common place than my head this go around. I know I won't feel "normal" for quite some time. But it is kind of refreshing this pain. I believe that it will someday go away.
It renewed my hope that maybe someday all my other pain will vanish too. And all of this made me realize that every day I live is a minor miracle.
Back in college, in 2004 when blogging was hardly even a thing yet, I was here. Blogging before blogging meant anything to anyone. You can look in the archives for my past writings, but it was much more like a journal in the past. When we started fundraising, I messed around with the idea of launching something new for this new phase of our journey but actually hated that idea. I am a sum of all of my life and so much of it is here already. So I'm keeping it here. At least for now.
My main focus these days is blogging about our newest journey into the bizarre and wonderful world of gestational surrogacy. Posts dated 2013 and forward will trend heavily toward that journey. I don't promise everything I write will be about though. There might be other things that sneak in occasionally.
Please come along our journey with us. As the saying goes, "The more, the merrier!"
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