I've been thinking about love today. It's been a long time since I could say I have been "in love." But I have loved. And I do love. What I'm thinking today is that maybe, just maybe, I have not loved not enough.
Talking tonight about love with my best friend I realized something. See, anger, when experienced toward a person, is directly connected to love. It must be psychological fact somehow. I've not done research on this, so don't go quoting me. But though anger and love are very different emotions, it is fair to say, I think that you cannot get angry at someone you do not love. There are, of course, the instances of the man on the street who pisses you off by spitting out his gum that you've stepped in while walking to work. Or the woman on the cell phone who should just, "hang-up and drive!" But I don't mean daily annoyances. I mean anger.
You might agree that you've only been really angry at someone you've really loved. I know when I tally all my angry moments, they don't amount to the man in line who takes too long to sign his credit card receipt and the woman I don't know who bumped into me without apologizing. I really don't have a short fuse; I don't anger easily. Little things really don't bug me...unless there are lots of little things all at once...then no one can find a pen and I get so mad!!! But these are not the moments that matter. Those register with people I've held close to my heart.
I can count the number of times I've every been extremely angry on one hand. I wonder what that says about the people I've really and truly loved.
Back in college, in 2004 when blogging was hardly even a thing yet, I was here. Blogging before blogging meant anything to anyone. You can look in the archives for my past writings, but it was much more like a journal in the past. When we started fundraising, I messed around with the idea of launching something new for this new phase of our journey but actually hated that idea. I am a sum of all of my life and so much of it is here already. So I'm keeping it here. At least for now.
My main focus these days is blogging about our newest journey into the bizarre and wonderful world of gestational surrogacy. Posts dated 2013 and forward will trend heavily toward that journey. I don't promise everything I write will be about though. There might be other things that sneak in occasionally.
Please come along our journey with us. As the saying goes, "The more, the merrier!"
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