When God gives you something it's important to look at what he wants you to do with it. God gave me a week and a half without work. The importance of that I cannot over look. He has a purpose for this time. It's been so neat to see how and why. I know I need to see why and so I've been looking. The wonderful thing about looking is that when you look, you see.
From helping a friend in need, to meeting for coffee with my dad, to spending time alone in prayer and thought, to organizing some things and making a mess of others, connecting with old friends, and making time for new ones. What it looks a lot like on the outside is a ton phone calls and a full calendar. It looks like running around and talking to people and doing things. But what it feels like is life! What I have begun to see, only because I've begun to look, is that it is my relationships and the things I do give me life. What I am beginning to see is the difference between an imprint and an impact. And which I want. Not only which I want to give but also which I want to receive. Then I consider the "treat others the way you wish to be . . . " cliché and it seems, in the same breath, trite but true.
But the other thing I've seen, as I have been looking, that the definition of my life is not in my relationships. And it's certainly not in a date on the calendar of life or whatever activity I have chosen to place on the pda. Instead, my definition in and of life, is defined by the Author of the story of the entire world. To think however, that he took time to write my story, so seemingly insignificant and unimportant in the grand scheme of things, makes me realize that when God gives me time to look for something important, I'd better not skim the pages. This is not a time to speed read. I want to learn and really take in everything He has to say to me. So I've been lookin'.
Back in college, in 2004 when blogging was hardly even a thing yet, I was here. Blogging before blogging meant anything to anyone. You can look in the archives for my past writings, but it was much more like a journal in the past. When we started fundraising, I messed around with the idea of launching something new for this new phase of our journey but actually hated that idea. I am a sum of all of my life and so much of it is here already. So I'm keeping it here. At least for now.
My main focus these days is blogging about our newest journey into the bizarre and wonderful world of gestational surrogacy. Posts dated 2013 and forward will trend heavily toward that journey. I don't promise everything I write will be about though. There might be other things that sneak in occasionally.
Please come along our journey with us. As the saying goes, "The more, the merrier!"
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